I will not be afraid,
for the LORD my God is with me wherever I go. Joshua 1:9
Pain and unpleasant feelings
I have fibromyalgia, and experience a lot of pain and unpleasant sensations in my body.
Talking to Jesus about this, he said to me:
I use everything for your good.
I will use this present trial for your good.
Give it all to me and trust me.
When you feel afraid, and when you are in pain, trying to run from and avoid these unpleasant sensations, actually increases their power.
Instead, allow them to be there, and see me in the midst of your experience.
Focus on me.
Trust in me.
How did Jesus endure the cross?
I then thought of Jesus on the cross, and wondered how he endured it.
I focused on my father.
I felt the pain fully, but focused on him.
That’s why I cried out in such anguish, asking why he had forsaken me – for at that moment of darkness, I couldn’t see or hear him.
We were separated by a deep, dark chasm. We had never been separated before, ever.
Now from the sixth hour there was darkness over all the land until the ninth hour. And about the ninth hour Jesus cried out with a loud voice, saying, “Eli, Eli, lema sabachthani?” that is, “My God, my God, why have you forsaken me?” Mat 27:45-46
I literally took on the sin of the world, and when it was upon me in it’s fullness, I experienced the separation that mankind, without me, experiences.
For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God. 2 Corin 5:21
I know the emptiness, the grief, the pointlessness and despair, that each of you feel without me.
Surely he has borne our griefs
and carried our sorrows;
yet we esteemed him stricken,
smitten by God, and afflicted.
But he was pierced for our transgressions;
he was crushed for our iniquities;
upon him was the chastisement that brought us peace,
and with his wounds we are healed.
All we like sheep have gone astray;
we have turned—every one—to his own way;
and the Lord has laid on him
the iniquity of us all. Isa 53:4-5
What amazing love, that Jesus suffered and died for us!
He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, that we might die to sin and live to righteousness. By his wounds you have been healed. For you were straying like sheep, but have now returned to the Shepherd and Overseer of your souls. 1 Peter 2:24-25
Here’s a short poem.
I became sin
I took your sin:
Truly took it.
you are free!
you can know my father.
the emptiness and despair are gone!
you have fullness of life!
Do you know Jesus as your Lord and Saviour?
He loves you, and is longing for you to give your life to him.
If you haven’t done this, I urge you to read this post.