Do you battle with unwanted and inappropriate thoughts about Jesus?
Although this is a difficult subject to write about, I feel it’s important, as I’m sure there would be others who experience similar problems.
A seemingly never-ending battle.
Ever since I was born again, I’ve had, at times, the problem of sexual thoughts about Jesus entering my mind.
I hate it, and inevitably I feel extremely guilty and ashamed.
These thoughts come at unexpected times, and often when I’m enjoying intimate moments with Jesus.
I repent of them, yet they still plague me.
Jesus is fully God and fully man.
He came to the earth in human form.
In this world, being intimate with someone is so often sexual in nature, and I believe it’s difficult for our minds to comprehend intimacy differently, especially with someone of the opposite sex.
Jesus’ complete and deep love for us.
Jesus’ love for us is completely pure, and deeper than any sexual union could ever be.
Jesus was celibate while he walked this earth, and always WILL be celibate.
He offers us love and intimacy that is so deep and so complete, so pure and so beautiful…..and he truly understands us!
He understands our battles.
He knows our desires.
He also knows that these thoughts will try to get in the way of our intimacy with him.
He wants to heal and purify us.
He wants to take our fears.
O LORD, you have searched me and known me!
You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
you discern my thoughts from afar.
You search out my path and my lying down
and are acquainted with all my ways.
Even before a word is on my tongue,
behold, O LORD, you know it altogether.
You hem me in, behind and before,
and lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
it is high; I cannot attain it. Psalm 139:1-6
This is a word I received from Jesus, while praying about this issue.
Satan sends his demons to torment you, and to try to separate us.
He can’t do it, but he sends these thoughts to make you feel guilt and shame, for he hates intimacy between any child of mine and myself.
Don’t dwell on the thoughts. Instead, give them to me. Trust me with them.
I know you through and through, and I will deal with these thoughts.
Be honest and open with me.
Don’t try to hide the thoughts, release them to me.
I know your thoughts, and I’m not judging you for them.
I know you don’t think of me in that way.
I know your love for me is pure.
I understand temptation, for I have known temptation.
But in temptation, I didn’t sin, or even want to.
And you won’t either – if you stay close to me and trust me.
Let me be your shield.
Don’t push the thoughts away, as that fuels them.
Surrendering the thoughts to me takes away their power.
I want to know these depths of you.
to know your struggles and your shame.
I want to enter these depths and heal you.
Let me in, my child!
Let me in, and I will cleanse you through and through!
I am your creator. I made you!
I know you. I love you.