Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,Psalm 23:4
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
The last few weeks have been an emotional rollercoaster, hence the reason I haven’t posted anything on my blog for a while.
My daughter, who is 35 years old, was diagnosed with breast cancer.
When I had breast cancer at 41 years old, the pain I felt was nothing to what I’m feeling now. Sadness and grief have consumed me, with unstoppable tears.
I immediately surrendered my daughter to God, and knowing she’s in his hands and he will fulfill his ultimate purpose in her is comforting.
I’ve struggled with guilt, feeling I’ve handed down this horrible disease, and have needed to forgive myself.
As a mother, I would gladly take her pain. I thought of Jesus’ mother Mary, as she watched her son suffer and die.
Jesus truly knows our pain
I was reminded that Jesus truly knows and understands all of our pain, for he experienced it: he took it all upon himself, when he suffered and died. He is with us in our suffering. He carries us, gives us strength, hope and courage.
My soul is overwhelmed with sorrow to the point of death.Matthew 26:38
The Lord is near to the brokenheartedPsalm 34:18
and saves the crushed in spirit.
Surely he has borne our griefsIsa 53:4
and carried our sorrows;
yet we esteemed him stricken,
smitten by God, and afflicted.
Ominous clouds gather overhead,
and thick darkness fills the air.
tearing the ground beneath me.
An aching, groaning chasm
threatens to swallow me.
Rivers of tears flow.
In this storm
I reach out to you
I know you
will lead me through this valley,
and carry me to safety.
An encouraging song
I found this beautiful song on YouTube, which expresses so much of what I’m feeling.
We have found out that the cancer, thankfully, hasn’t spread! God is answering prayers!
My daughter still has a long road ahead of her, with chemotherapy and surgery. I know God is working in her life, giving her courage and drawing her to himself.