I long to surrender to God, but I strive – doing things in my own strength and usually wearing myself out. I’m realising it’s impossible for me to surrender to him, in my own strength.
My heart is heavy, my body is aching, and I am exhausted. I walk with heavy steps. I long to be with Jesus, and want to be ready for his return.
Evil is increasing I like to start the day with prayer and bible study, but lately I'm having great difficulty focussing. Instead of praying, I go to my iPad and do something else. Then before I know it, the day has gone. I'm managing to do the absolute essentials, and am very slowly doing some … Continue reading Spiritual Shift
Tired, foggy headed, and distracted I am so tired, and prayer is even more difficult today. I hate being like this, as I love God so much, and I desperately need Him! I am nothing without him, yet I allow myself to be distracted. I waste time. My desire is to put God first, in … Continue reading I Need You
Struggling to forgive myself I've been aware for a while now, that I find it difficult to forgive myself. I rehash old wrongdoings, then I repent of them again, but still feel bad about them. For the last couple of days I've been seriously seeking the Lord about this, and in the process, I've learnt … Continue reading Broken but Forgiven
I am the resurrection and the life. Whoever believes in me, though he die, yet shall he live, and everyone who lives and believes in me shall never die.John 11:25 Have you ever faced the possibility of dying? I have, having had cancer, twice. It really puts things into perspective. It forced me to prioritise, … Continue reading If My Life Ends Today
My Lord and God, I’m tired and ill. I'm finding it so difficult to pray….. to focus on you. I long for you….. I need you….. but my mind wanders, I lose concentration, and your presence eludes me. I am sorry for my weakness, for failing to put you first, for allowing myself to be … Continue reading Dependant On You
My Lord and Saviour, you gave your life for me, and I am so grateful, so thankful for your wonderful, unending love! You are so perfect…..so holy….. and worthy of all worship! You deserve my undivided attention, yet I get so distracted, and other things become my focus. My heart fills with sorrow for I … Continue reading Undeserved Love
Do you look back on your life, and wonder, “what if...”? Do you have regrets about mistakes you have made, sins you have committed, people you have hurt, choices you have made? I certainly do. Praying about this today, I was led to the following scripture. The Lord will perfect that which concerns me; Your … Continue reading Do you have regrets?