I long to surrender to God, but I strive – doing things in my own strength and usually wearing myself out. I’m realising it’s impossible for me to surrender to him, in my own strength.
My heart is heavy, my body is aching, and I am exhausted. I walk with heavy steps. I long to be with Jesus, and want to be ready for his return.
Evil is increasing I like to start the day with prayer and bible study, but lately I'm having great difficulty focussing. Instead of praying, I go to my iPad and do something else. Then before I know it, the day has gone. I'm managing to do the absolute essentials, and am very slowly doing some … Continue reading Spiritual Shift
Be sober-minded; be watchful. Your adversary the devil prowls around like a roaring lion, seeking someone to devour.Resist him, firm in your faith, knowing that the same kinds of suffering are being experienced by your brotherhood throughout the world. And after you have suffered a little while, the God of all grace, who has called … Continue reading Surviving the Times
Because you have kept my word about patient endurance, I will keep you from the hour of trial that is coming on the whole world, to try those who dwell on the earth. I am coming soon. Hold fast what you have, so that no one may seize your crown. The one who conquers, I … Continue reading Let No One Seize Your Crown!
Out of my distress I called on the LORD; the LORD answered me and set me freePsalm 118:5 I feel so much pain inside me, and tears are in my eyes. It feels too much to bear. It's so difficult to face. It’s exhausting. Jesus is my strength, and I know he will enable me … Continue reading Freedom Costs
The Spirit of the Lord God is upon me, because the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor; he has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted, to proclaim liberty to the captives, and the opening of the prison to those who are bound; to proclaim the year of the Lord's … Continue reading Jesus Weeps
Distracted and Off Balance There are times when I feel anxious, exhausted, and “off balance”, when my prayer times are filled with distractions, and the creative things I normally enjoy doing don't go smoothly, or don't even happen. I've been talking to Jesus about this, and he's highlighted a few things to me. When I … Continue reading Let Jesus Be Your All!
Struggling to forgive myself I've been aware for a while now, that I find it difficult to forgive myself. I rehash old wrongdoings, then I repent of them again, but still feel bad about them. For the last couple of days I've been seriously seeking the Lord about this, and in the process, I've learnt … Continue reading Broken but Forgiven
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.Psalm 23:4 Emotional Rollercoaster The last few weeks have been an emotional rollercoaster, hence the reason I haven’t posted anything on my blog for a while. … Continue reading Jesus is with me in this grief